This was the day that my baby niece got married. Her name is Ashleigh. She married a soldier. His name is Ashley.  They had a beautiful wedding. A beautiful wedding for a lovely couple.  Her dress was absolutely stunning, much like she is and always has been. Her dress was elegant and she looked truly perfect in it. She found her dream dress in a bridal boutique in the quaint little town of Faversham in Kent. It is called, can you believe it – Ashley’s?! Their day went so smoothly and emotions were running high. My niece has grown into a woman in the blink of an eye. She is sensitive, kind, sensible and sure! She is sure of who she is and what she wants from her life. When the relationship between the Ash’s started to flourish… she was sure that she wanted to spend the rest of her…

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Last night, as my beautiful daughter allowed me and only me, to scoop her up in to my arms as her eyes felt heavy and she admitted defeat that she was feeling sleepy, I could feel my heart soften with complete and overwhelming love for her.  She threw both arms around me and held on to me so tightly, like I was the only person other than her on the planet. She snuggled her baby soft and squishy cheeks into my collar bone and yawned. The smell of her milky breath floated out into the air and at that moment, she opened her big blue eyes and stared in to mine, blinking heavily to fight away a night of hopefully, beautiful and magical dreams. I lay my beautiful child onto her bed and as her puffy, woodland creature covered, pink duvet enveloped her petit frame, I could see her shudder…

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To My Dearest Little Ellenah, It is the night before the birthday at which you will turn three years old. Very much like the past year, today has been colourful. Today you have shown me every mood, thought and feeling that you possibly could. From having to leave your ballet class halfway through because you were feeling a touch moody, the regret you felt hallway down the road because you wanted to ‘go back ooh dancing ooh join in’, the speed in which you offered to pick up a bag that I had dropped, offering me your last sweetie, the slight sobs because you were feeling tired and your ‘legs go a-bed’, the sweet smile on your face when you were catching some 3-o-clock, forty minute zzzzz’s, the rage that you demonstrated when you didn’t want to leave Nanny’s house and the whole-hearted face squeeze and snogaroo that you gave…

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Dear Noah, How can you even be five tomorrow? It doesn’t feel quite right. It truly feels like yesterday that I first met you, In the bedroom of our old house, surrounded by paint pots and hot mess because we hadn’t long moved in… and we were in the process of decorating your nursery!! We have come such a long way since that day. I truly couldn’t wish for a better relationship with you. You are honestly my best little friend.  The past year has been a big one in your life. You closed a chapter on pre- school and you started school. My Darling, you have stormed it! Believe me when I tell you that I’m crying as I type this, I am so so so so proud of you. We may not have the best of everything and we may not shower you with material things but as…

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Hellooooo Everyone (Yep still feels odd!) Today’s Blog may be a little long Guys and it wasn’t the one I was really planning but I couldn’t not put it on here today.  As you may know I have two children, I love them both equally in very different ways because they are both unique (Obviously!) but today I wanted to write about my first born Son. His name is Noah and he is 4 years old, nearly five (he can not wait to be five!).  I had Noah when I was just 22… some say still a baby myself, I disagree. Noah and I are very close, we have a great relationship. Regardless of how young I was, I had already decided what I wanted for Noah, myself and our relationship since before he was born. I could not wait to meet him! This morning I have watched him closely,…

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