A Pregnancy Poem
Hellooooo Everyone (Yep still feels odd!)
Today’s Blog may be a little long Guys and it wasn’t the one I was really planning but I couldn’t not put it on here today.
As you may know I have two children, I love them both equally in very different ways because they are both unique (Obviously!) but today I wanted to write about my first born Son. His name is Noah and he is 4 years old, nearly five (he can not wait to be five!).
I had Noah when I was just 22… some say still a baby myself, I disagree. Noah and I are very close, we have a great relationship. Regardless of how young I was, I had already decided what I wanted for Noah, myself and our relationship since before he was born. I could not wait to meet him!
This morning I have watched him closely, the way he independently manoeuvres around, his confidence, his humour. He has truly grown in to a lovely little boy and I’m not just saying that because he is mine.
This got me thinking about a poem I wrote when I was carrying him. It is by no means perfect, I’m not a poet… BUT… it came from my heart and when I read it, it takes me back to a scary time, the anticipation of how much my life would change, the overwhelming love, the self doubt, the overwhelming love again and the overwhelming love AGAIN (Yikes, I am soppy aren’t I?!)
So, here it is (I hope you make it to the end and I hope you enjoy it!).
God’s Gift
Sometimes my mind wonders, to future, present and past
I think of all the days when life went by so fast
I think of places I have been and people I have met
Lazy summers, exotic places, dancing in the rain and getting wet
Life is all about the living, every single day
So that when you get older, you have lots of things to say
Life is all about embracing, each and every part
It’s something to believe in, so hope can fill your heart
Life is a gift to cherish, the good and any flaws
Things happen for a reason and always opens doors
I used to think I knew it all, fate had a different view
It turned my world upside down, the reason only God knew
I said goodbye to a life I thought was destiny
I came across a fairytale, that’s where I met Daddy
He became my hero, he saved me in a way
God had shown his plan to me, we were meant to meet that day
Our love grew very quickly, my heart quickly fell
We were each others everything, we were in a spell
He held me tightly, made me smile, made me feel so safe
I felt the world slow right down, in his sweet embrace
Our fairytale carried on through summer and the cold
He made me feel so beautiful, when I was in his hold
I opened up my heart to him, he gave his in return
Whenever I would see him, my heart would flutter and burn
One night he came to see me, I kissed him a hello
Alone that night, I found out something he should really know
I sat down across the room, he asked if I was okay
I said that life was changing, there was something I needed to say
He waited very patiently, a spark of worry in his eyes
I looked out of the window, to the stars up in the skies
A tear fell upon my cheek, I know what I had to do
I smiled from the bottom of my heart and said that God was giving us you
Ever since the day I knew, you were growing there inside
I have never felt love like it, I am beaming with pride
I beg that you be safe and grow healthy and strong
I really can’t wait to meet you, when you come along
I picture what you will look like, I can’t help but cry
An angel has blessed me from above, somewhere in the sky
I wonder what you will grow to be, I wonder what you will do
I just know whatever you become, I’ll always be proud of you
You are my inspiration to make every day so bright
Brighter than the stars shone, when I came about you that night
You make me want to be better, to be everything I can be
You are my something to believe in, you have set me free
I am free to have the courage, to be whatever you need
To take care of you and treasure you and say goodbye to greed
I am free to show you the world, near and far away
I want you to see it all, for that I’ll always pray
I’ll wish you see a mountain top and a peaceful stream
For the beauty that is the world, you should see it gleam
I hope you meet such people who show you life’s divide
I insist you understand life, from someone else’s side
I demand you live for the moments that really make you smile
To understand the seconds, that make your life worth while
I want for you to have belief and never live in fear
I need you to know wherever you are, for you I’ll always be here
Whenever your hour of sunshine becomes a rainy day
I’ll always be there to tell you that it will clear away
I’ll always be there to pick you up, if ever you should fall
I’ll always be there listening, if ever you should call
I’ll let you walk your footsteps, wherever you should roam
I want you to know, wherever I am will always be your home
You’ve made my world so colourful, you’ve made my dreams come true
The day God gave me a gift and the gift he gave was you.
I would love to hear how you all felt pre-parenthood, feel now that you little ones are growing so quickly or just anything you want to share with me and tell me, I love hearing from you.
With Love, Ria x
